“I suspect she will be like air. Like knowing how to breathe. —
~ The Wrath and the Dawn
Honestly.. When PoC get to an age where they are able to deeply realize and internalize how intensely and directly racism affects them, as well as able to recognize the little racial microaggressions against them, it truly IS a traumatic experience. Its draining and depressing and painful and scarring. It can very easily make you lose the will to do anything or dream anything. And that is something that whites will never experience, thus never understand how deep this goes.
If you define liberation as being able to do the things your oppressors do without barriers, you are seeking power, not freedom.
and the thing about manipulative parents is
that even when they are sober
they are still manipulative
still try to control every little inch that you give them
so no matter how firm you are in your boundaries
they will fucking find a way to burrow themselves into your life enough to hinder you in some kind of way